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[cleolinda]

Did not sleep last night.

1 am: Not sleeping.

2 am: Not sleeping.

3 am: Unhappy tummy.

4 am: Awful dream about my teeth rotting out in twos and threes.

5 am: Cat prancing on spleen.

6 am: Not sleeping.

I am also having major Digest guilt right now--not only have they finally cast Superman, but now there's Fantastic Four cast pics (read: blonde Jessica Alba and tasty Ioan Gruffudd). (And Keith Richards has had costume fittings for POTC2! I have to get the site back up! Please donate your extra or unwanted hours in the day in the box at the bottom of this entry.)

Having a hard time eating lately, for some reason. I know I should eat, but... I just don't feel hungry. It's too easy to think of reasons not to, and then my blood sugar bottoms out and I crash. I've started taking these "One-a-Day Weight Smart" vitamins, just because they were what I had on hand, but I don't remember the appetite suppressing effect being this severe before.

Anyway. I'm having one of those weeks where my mental energy far outstrips my physical energy, and I'm paralyzed by all the things I want to write, because I'm afraid I don't have the time to finish them. I'd feel like shit if I updated the Digest for, like, two weeks and then let it slip back into oblivion again. I'm already going to feel terrible if I don't manage to keep posting scenes to rosehannah. And I'm supposed to be working on the book. (Although I do feel reenergized by writing something with actual sentences and characters and plots, as opposed to pages upon pages of one-liners, so I probably need to set aside time to write fiction just for my own writerly health, M15M book or no.) And then I feel like I ought to put up some kind of non-book "Fifteen Minutes" because I keep getting emails from people asking when another one is going up and are there really only six or seven parodies online in the first place or are they just not seeing the others? (There are no others.) And it would be nice to put it up in time for Halloween (and I'm not even telling you what I'm thinking of, because if I did, it would guarantee that I would not be able to finish it). You know, just for fun. OH MY GOD I CAN'T MOVE.

I'm going to see if we have any macaroni now.

Comments

[kayu.livejournal.com]

I had a bad night too :/

not sleeping is horribleee

[mellifera.livejournal.com]

I have the rotting teeth dreams too.

[katla-asriel.livejournal.com]

I had a crappy night too. But that was only because I spilled my guts to my mom, who demanded it anyway and who cried even more than I did.

And Keith Richards has had costume fittings for POTC2!

Yay! I was always hopeful that he could get in; the sequel is looking a little brighter. Because the plot I've discovered lurking somewhere on the Internet is just completely awful.

Or so I think. But then again, that is, like, my fandom, so I get mad when people mess around with it.

By the way, thought I'd let you know that I've managed to persuade my mom to watch Lost, but first she has to read your recaps. :) I'm such a demanding daughter.

Good luck with the writerly health!

-Katla

[newbia.livejournal.com]

Hope you get better soon. :( If you still can't eat a few days from now, go see a doctor. Or maybe finish Black Ribbon and then take the day off to reenergize.

[almostnever.livejournal.com]

I have an idea. It's always easier to do the things that you dash off for fun than the things that you feel obligated to do. Cf: your Lost recaps, which you seem to have no problems doing, because you don't feel obliged to do them.

Maybe you could pick something else to feel obligated to do, so that writing your movie summaries and stories becomes the fun escape again. Considering you have no appetite, I suggest exercise, since that could also help you feel hungry again. Like, go out and buy cross-trainers and swear to yourself that you're going to put in half an hour of challenging exercise every day. I bet you'll soon find yourself at the keyboard thinking, "I swear I'll go work out... as soon as I finish this chapter!" ;-)

[cleolinda.livejournal.com]

Heh. So true. And I don't even think I've mentioned it, but I've been trying to guilt myself into getting on the treadmill downstairs. You're probably right--either way, I'll either get exercise (good) or put exercise off to work (good, from a productivity perspective). Thanks! :)

[foresthouse.livejournal.com]

I think almost every person I know has at one point or another had the teeth-falling-out dream - apparently it is supposed to represent a feeling of powerlessness to control aspects of your life...
If that's true, I'm surprised I don't have that dream every night!
Anyway, hope tonight is better, sleep-wise.

[rachnye.livejournal.com]

According to my Dream Dictionary (by Tony Crisp):
Teeth: the ageing process as it relates to maturity. Teeth falling out: Apprehension about maturing and facing independence and responsibility; loss of attractiveness. Among the Arabs it is believed that if ou dream of losing teeth it means your brother or son is in trouble.

Don't know if this means anything to you!

[cleolinda.livejournal.com]

I have that dream dictionary! I love that one!

I just popped over to the online dream dictionary on my journal sidebar, but it basically said the same thing. Except it was more about worrying about your health, which I kinda have been doing. (Don't have brothers or children, period.)

[wock.livejournal.com]

Ack! Teeth dreams suck. I had one long, long ago....

[daedreams.livejournal.com]

Oh my lord, I thought I was the only person who dreams about losing teeth. Glad to know I'm not alone. It's a recurring dream, too, so I guess I feel out of control a lot.

So, am I the only one who has dreams about being a lemming who refuses to jump off the cliff? (http://www.livejournal.com/users/daedreams/63944.html)

[syrenssong.livejournal.com]

tasty Ioan Gruffudd

He wasn't bad (very tasty)... but DAMN Julian McMahon looked hella tasty, too.

OOh, I've had the teeth falling out dreams too. Creepy as hell. Usually it's in chunks. :;shudders::

[bibliotech.livejournal.com]

THIS POST WAS TOO PRODUCTIVE I HAVE TO GO CRY NOW BECAUSE I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED NOTHING TODAY. OH WOES.

[cleolinda.livejournal.com]

Snerrrrk.

I managed to eat, since I posted that, and icon a line from some Wish Bear porn (don't ask). That's how productive I've been.

[bibliotech.livejournal.com]

I...had sherbert. Damnit, you still win.

[corinnethewise.livejournal.com]

Anyway. I'm having one of those weeks where my mental energy far outstrips my physical energy, and I'm paralyzed by all the things I want to write, because I'm afraid I don't have the time to finish them. this sentence reminded me of this poem:

WHEN I have fears that I may cease to be
Before my pen has glean'd my teeming brain,
Before high pil`d books, in charact'ry,
Hold like rich garners the full-ripen'd grain;
When I behold, upon the night's starr'd face, 5
Huge cloudy symbols of a high romance,
And feel that I may never live to trace
Their shadows, with the magic hand of chance;
And when I feel, fair creature of an hour!
That I shall never look upon thee more, 10
Never have relish in the faery power
Of unreflecting love;—then on the shore
Of the wide world I stand alone, and think,
Till Love and Fame to nothingness do sink.
- Keats

[megathy27.livejournal.com]

It's weird, a lot of my friends had trouble sleeping last night, and not for any particular reason except simple insomnia. I sympathize with you... going to bed at 2 and falling asleep at 4:30 is not fun >_

[penmage.livejournal.com]

I have the same eating issue. I know I should...but I forget. I know, it takes a special kind of stupid to forget to eat - that's me. I suppose I'm just too busy and located too far away from food-giving places like Cafs at mealtime.

A few days ago, I was cheerfully drinking a fun-looking new fruit drink when I discovered it contained appetite suppressants. :shudder: Those things scare me.

[cleolinda.livejournal.com]

Oh, man--when I was in college, I was either forgetting to eat or living inside a bag of Fritos. And my room was three minutes away from the caf, too.

[edda.livejournal.com]

Keith Richards getting cotume fittings for POTC 2!? YAAAAAAAAY!!!! *throws rum bottle in air*

Cat prancing on spleen.

Best. Sentence. In the whole. Damn. English. Language.

OH MY GOD I CAN'T MOVE.

*huggles* You'll be fine. Here, have some rum. *catches bottle, hands over*

[elbales]

Insomnia is the suck. Cover your clock face, if it glows in the dark. And stop taking the damn appetite suppressant thingies! Those are eeebil.

Jeebus I'm bossy. Can you tell I just taught 3 hours of class?

[freethegayboys.livejournal.com]

Speaking only from experience here (because I hate it when people get "preachy") I suggest you try to eat.

I don't eat properly, and I often get MAJOR cramps because I don't. I also find that I can't sleep as well when i don't.

I completely understand the lack of appitite thing. Try to eat stuff that doesn't normally take much effort. I find my effort is always reduced, and I just couldn't be bothered eating.
One of the things that really keeps me going is milk, but I know people don't really like milk anymore, so I can deal with that. Bread is another good thing to keep around, because it keeps you sustained.

TRY to eat things, because I'm even now feeling the potentially long-term effects of what I only started doing to myself recently... it ends up hurting.

keep alove please, the world WOULD be a different place without you.

[cleolinda.livejournal.com]

Awww, thanks. Actually, I've practically been living off milk and cereal for about a week, so I hear you on that one. And Eggo waffles. I don't know.

[freethegayboys.livejournal.com]

Just... try to stay alive...

[cellardoor28.livejournal.com]

given that i'm currently in the fun land of unemployment, if you do want someone to help with the digest, i'd be happy to (although not sure what good i'd be!).

oh, and i know what you mean about not sleeping. thats why i have sleeping pills ;)

[the-bumper-car.livejournal.com]

er... pardon my ignorance, but what is POTC? I'm trying to recall any movies that I've watched with that acronym, and none comes to mind...

and isn't Keith Richards the wasted rocker of the Rolling Stones?

[cleolinda.livejournal.com]

Pirates of the Caribbean. Johnny Depp said that he based Jack Sparrow on Keith Richards (and... Pepe LePew). So he talked Keith Richards, who is an actual friend of his, into taking the role of Jack Sparrow's father.

*smack*...

[the-bumper-car.livejournal.com]

ugh... i just remembered what PotC on my way home from work... so Keith Richards will be in PotC 2? Cool! They won't need much special effects to make him look undead, though...

[sdemory.livejournal.com]

Actually, I've made my sleeplessness work for me of late. I tend to take a three hour "break" in the midst of sleep that's profoundly around-the-house productive. Of course, what I call a break is a burst of sleeplessness that'll come back to bite me on my ass. In the short term, though, the laundry's under control!

The FF pics give me a bit more hope... and I really, really look forward to hearing Detective Vic Mackey say "It's clobberin' time." Von Doom seems a bit Planet Hollywood for my liking, but it still has some potential.

[pistolharris.livejournal.com]

Aiiieee! Aiiiee! It's JESSICA! Aiiieee!