Thanks for sharing all of that. I'm sure it helps to share stuff (even if it's with 1349581498 strangers!), but I'm also sure that it helps others recognize stuff that may be similar in their own lives. When you say that you need to make changes in your life that only *you* can make, I totally recognize my own thought processes there. I kinda feel better about this whole OMG I NEED TO CHANGE NOW! thing I have going on.

Good luck with all of your endeavors. I'm sure you'll be great. :)